reflections

14 days passed!
i survived!
boy, was it tough.. heartwrenching.. frustrating.. infuriating.. tiring.. fun.. heartbreaking.. scary.. thrilling.. heartwarming.. exciting.. satisfying.. awesome..

well, i think i have a lot to catch up on God. my QT has been non-existent. coming back to You Lord... give me some time n spur me on.. motivate me.

God! i realized how irritating, selfish n hypocritical n brother is.. n my sister is growing to become like him! i hate them to bits... almost. i know You commanded me to love them. TOUGH! esp when my brother keeps taking my things n using my things n always talking in such an upright manner n making me feel small n in the wrong when i wasnt in the first palce. the two of them ganging up against me.. making me feel tt i'm unloved. aft all i've done n sacrificed for them. even my dad said mean things abt me when he didnt even understand the situation so much so i broke down n cried..
MY FRIENDS TREAT ME BETTER THAN MY FAMILY!

Lord, then i really wished i never came on this holiday with my family.. esp when my mom wasnt coming along. i vowed to go on hol only with my friends.. cos they'll never scold me or be mean to me. FATHER! but You proved urself faithful... at the grand canyon... when i was feeling like shit... we were almost there... it started pouring so so heavily the tour guide started preparing us for the worse, telling us that we might not get a glimpse of the grand canyon cos the rain n cloudsn mist blurred our vision n besides, the rain was too heavy to make it thru the long walk to the grand canyon without getting soaked to the skin.