back to MGS to relief!

today is the end of my first week in MGS as a relief teacher for biology..

special thanks to sabrina, laoshi, natalie tan, lynette n some of my ex-teachers for making my days so much more interesting n enjoyable.. despite how often you tease me n make fun of me... i know you never mean any harm.

i was made to sit as jonathan tay's desk.. right beside elizabeth lee. if i were given a choice, that would be the last place i would ever wanna be at.

elizabeth lee has come across as a selfish person, who only bothers to look out for herself.. n a lazy one who wouldnt mind making people take the trouble to correct something tt is under her own responsibility. also, she is quick to justify her faults n even quicker to try n put the blame on someone else. sigh... jsut glad it's the end of my ordeal working with her. also, jonathan tay is rather careless to have missed out one part of a question for all but 2 girls from a particular class. from the little tt i hear abt him... my impression is tt he is a laid back person who doesnt really give his all in teaching his students.

ok ok, i am sure tt certain impressions are wrong... i just hope they are or MGS sure wouldnt have a good reputation if their teachers were like that.

day 1:
was so busy i didnt even have time to eat my lunch till 230!!! waited for xiao jiamin to come cos she wanted to observe the netball training.. hopefully You give her the answer n let her make her next move with confidence!
left school at 630 n was dead tired.

day2:
this time, i had an earlier lunch n actually was less busy than before!

day3:
watched the first part of farenheit 9/11 n spent a lot of time slacking n just talking to sabrina, lynette n nat. cool time!
couldnt sleep just thinking abt whether i should try to talk to kpchen abt the awkwardness.. told ms ho abt it.. but prayed n decided not to make hasty decisions.

day4:
i prayfully sought ur answer n i guess You really showed me what to do. it was almost impossible to find a suitable time to talk to kpchen so i suppose tt is all part of Your plan.
since i finished the 2nd disc of farenheit 9/11... i returned it to thory who barely had 10 minutes to spare!
to think she offered almost all but maybe 15? of my jellybeans as prizes for her students! i thot it was just meant to be a few. oh wells... a new side of her i've come to see. guess she wouldnt make such a good friend of mine.. dont even think she bothers making the effort. but oh well, she has been an encouragement with regards to her waiting 11 years for the right guy. well done! not all is lost.

day5:
busy day also.. had less than half an hour to gobble my lunch... n dear lynette got me a bar of chocolate =) hee. i should treat her next! =) haha.
mom n dad are leaving today for shanghai.. sending them to the airport at 10pm n gotta go to bun's place for ministry prayer aftwards. i really hope tt my brother wouldnt be home for the next 5 days Lord... i need to car.. i want the car... i hope i wont have to argue w him for it. rushing here n there... let Your will be done Lord.

tmr i gotta send dorothy for french lessons n pick sabrina up for lunch before going to pick dorothy n diane to school for the syf opening ceremony by 2pm. go for e-min meeting n later pick dorothy again at 9pm from school.

sunday would be spent in church n later we should buy lunch for our granny. really.. we must.
i pray Lord tt You would strengthen n heal my granny n help her feel loved.. by You, by me n my family n her children n relatives. i love her Lord, but sometimes i just dont know how we can possibly communicate with each other properly. her speach is left slurred, a few years ago since her stroke... i cant understand what she is saying n my hokkien vocabulary is limited. please just let her know tt i love her n care abt her Lord.

most importantly, i pray tt You would assure my granny of Your great love for her. it doesnt depend on her physical state Lord, just her heart. heal her heart n show Yourself strong Father.



alrighty, i pray tt the coming days would be spent productively n tt i would learn more abt You n Your great love. i wanna live for You alone Lord. these are not just empty words, but i want to be a living testimony for You Lord!!!! let Your light shine thru me to touch the lives of Your people. even to people who are selfish n difficult to live with. You know who are these people tt exist in my life Lord.

i dreamt tt the fitting went perfectly well. monday is the day i've to go for the fitting. 1030am to be exact. n go back again 5 hours later at 330pm to check if my eyes are suitable for the ortho-k lenses. Father, i know tt You are in-charge of my life... even the nitty gritty, tiny weany details... hence Lord, let me be suitable only if these lenses are the best option for my myopia n astigmatism... n only if they are worth the costs.
many things can happen.. if i were made to pay in full right now.. this place might just close down one day n i would be cheated of my money!!!
i'm content to just wear rgp if tt's what's best for me... n maybe lasik surgery one fine day... aft seeking Your guidance of course! =)

let me never forget to keep asking for Your wisdom n guidance in every decision i make Lord. it may seem impossible for me to ask you how i should go abt every single thing, but help me try. recognizing tt Your plan is the best n seeking Your guidance is the best thing i could ever do.

thank you Lord for everything. AMEN!!!

i pray for a great month ahead with 2 more weeks of relief n 1 week at kk. n 2 n a half weeks left of the hols thereafter.

continued reflections..

hmms, i was halfway thru my account of my holiday in the states... grand canyon to be exact. wells, i'm really awed by You n Your faithfulness Lord. in the times when i was so so down.. when i felt like nothing could ever get better... when i was super sad n hurt...

i asked for a sign. a sign that would reafirm my beliefs... that You, my Lord n my God, is still in full control of all the nitty gritty details of my life. that You were still present to comfort me, strengthen me n uplift me.

n You, O Lord... you sent a hailstorm to meet me at the grand canyon!
in the state of ARIZONA, mind you!!
where even a drop of rain is considered rare...
You sent heavy rain n hail!!!
how great is Your name O Lord.

my siblings n i started playing w the snow, throwing snowballs n even had a great yummy lunch of brocolli, rice n orange chicken (to think tt i dont even like chicken!).. a spectacular show of the grand canyon n you cleared the clouds n rain within an hour.. sending the sun shining down yet again.
for this one day in summer, one can actually view the grand canyon at low temperatures n enjoy it's view.
Yes Lord, i am gonna trust in You all the days of my life. For You alone are God... n You are indeed faithful.


the next place apart from las vegas n LA was SAN FRANCISCO!
love the weather there... cool n nice... freezing in the early morn.

fishermans' wharf... the cruise... napa valley... castro aka gay land/street.. twin peaks.. nice, comfy hotel.. 7 mile? drive.. then back to LA/anaheim.

the 2 days spent at disneyland (yuck.. was too kiddy with few fun, thrilling rides..) n the terrific universal studios! cool man.. that place! hollywood was ok only.

off we were to the airport to wait for hours just to get onboard our china airline flight to taipei.

first day i was off to meet sharon who took me to see echo in NTU ( national taiwan university) and even sat thru one of her biology classes in CHINESE! she's studying mathematics n hopes to become a professor in the states. later met michelle who's changed her name to vila. she's doing fashion design n had dinner w sharon n her.

later sharon n i walked to miramar to take the ferris wheel ride... a long long day it was.

good thing i slept almost all 13 hours on the plane!! yay! no jetlag for me! hee =)

next year we went on a tour around taipei... ok only. nothing spectacular... n later was pondering if i should go to vila's friend's farewell party. went in the end btu i have a feeling she asked me only cos she was hoping to meet my brother. oh well, such friends/people do exist
her friend came to her place to pick us up.. otherwise she wouldnt have even left the house. sigh.. the party was the least bit fun. left in under an hour n i got to drive her friend's car back to my lousy hotel. think i wouldnt really keep in contact w vila. her whole family is just as weird... not the least bit hospitable. just tt they're RICH. such there they can even afford an elevator in their house!!!

the next day i met sharon again n we went to taipei 101... tallest building in the world at this point of time. then tried the macs ice cream there... not as yummy as singapore's! so i feel tt singapore is still the best place on earth.

aft tt we went shopping n more shopping.. tried the mango ice which was super yummy but costs like 5 sing dollars!!! n some other taiwan snacks n bubble milk tea! too big a cup to finish without puking it all out.

the next day... back to singapore. FINALLY. made it thru the whole trip! still in on piece but with a daddy who was really unhappy w our behaviour n attitude... n me w a whole new perspective on my brother's n sister's real character.


overall... i just am so grateful to You Lord.. for taking care of me n loving me even when i feel so out of place.. lonely n unloved. n back to church n time spent w my church friends... it really brings a smile back to my face.

i know i didnt keep close to You by reading Your word or even praying enough during that whole 2 weeks... but i'm just happy i'm back on track! thank You Lord for Your forgiveness n love.

reflections

14 days passed!
i survived!
boy, was it tough.. heartwrenching.. frustrating.. infuriating.. tiring.. fun.. heartbreaking.. scary.. thrilling.. heartwarming.. exciting.. satisfying.. awesome..

well, i think i have a lot to catch up on God. my QT has been non-existent. coming back to You Lord... give me some time n spur me on.. motivate me.

God! i realized how irritating, selfish n hypocritical n brother is.. n my sister is growing to become like him! i hate them to bits... almost. i know You commanded me to love them. TOUGH! esp when my brother keeps taking my things n using my things n always talking in such an upright manner n making me feel small n in the wrong when i wasnt in the first palce. the two of them ganging up against me.. making me feel tt i'm unloved. aft all i've done n sacrificed for them. even my dad said mean things abt me when he didnt even understand the situation so much so i broke down n cried..
MY FRIENDS TREAT ME BETTER THAN MY FAMILY!

Lord, then i really wished i never came on this holiday with my family.. esp when my mom wasnt coming along. i vowed to go on hol only with my friends.. cos they'll never scold me or be mean to me. FATHER! but You proved urself faithful... at the grand canyon... when i was feeling like shit... we were almost there... it started pouring so so heavily the tour guide started preparing us for the worse, telling us that we might not get a glimpse of the grand canyon cos the rain n cloudsn mist blurred our vision n besides, the rain was too heavy to make it thru the long walk to the grand canyon without getting soaked to the skin.

one long, blessed day

Oh Lord, my God
All I desire is You.
Oh Lord, my God
All I desire is You.

Most precious than silver
More costly than gold
No riches on the earth compares with You
What can this world offer
When all I desire is You.

Lord, it sure was an eventful day yest. went back to mg to meet jon tay who told me all i had to do on his behalf.. talked to natalie tan n thory n went to zanet's place before going to town. we tried on so many clothes n in the end she bought a pair of shorts n a bikini. (think i shouldnt have lent her the money to buy tt bikini since i knew she was wearing it to swim!) morals... hers seem to have changed... i think this is what they refer to as a personality change due to some traumatic experience. i just gotta continue to pray for her n Lord, please take care of her n grant me patience with her.

had the runs so visited the toilet 5 times today... still decided to go down to SRC to try out rugby. wow.. am surprised tt i can throw an OVAL shaped ball! hee... i think i enjoyed myself a lot. however, i am not confident of playing contact rugby cos i felt a pain in my shoulder during the tackle.. scary.
nic actually pulled me in for contact but i feel more comfortable w touch. Lord, please work something out here for me =) i know you will! met angela, touch captain... who is real goodfrens w peiluan. SMALL world man.

yest, peiluan was talking abt handball, n i just might go down n try! seems so appealing since it wont cause too many injuries unlike contact. oh wells, see how. thurs when i come back from the states? or wed when sch reopens..

Father, i just wanted to thank you... for the great 2 weeks... n how camp kick started my engine. i'm so fired to do so many things now! i jsut hope tt my relationship w ms ho will not go bad... have a premonition tt something might happen. teach me Lord.
gonna shop for thory's wedding gift later. help us w this.. n let the 3 of us have a good time of fellowship. lynette, saby n me. peiluan cant make it.

i love you Lord. teach me to love you even more.. n i want to love You with my whole heart.. so nothing can cause my love for You to waver. no man. no thing. no hobby. no distraction.

AMEN!

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes on You
Lord i'm stepping out
from the comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding on to you


Wow Lord! what a week it has been!

ohs, i think i called ms ho last friday to tell her abt my results... By Your grace alone, i passed! thank you Lord! and later we talked abt love mg n she said she was going to JB for the sec 2 camp... i said i wanted to go to in my envious tone... n to my surprise she said CAN! on monday, mr heng was rushing out the application to the ministry of foreign affairs so i could go!!

monday came... n i was having second thots since i had no idea which other teachers would be going. sat in ms ho's car n topo-ed.. made 2 wrong turns due to the lousy directions. got there n realized tt i was all alone. didnt know quite a number of teachers so i just stood there waiting to move into our rooms.

wow.. then lynette came up to me n told me daniel was in her tuition w mr goh! she even said she spoke w dorothy! i was like "you know my whole family eh? you know my brother, my sister... wanna know my parents too? haha"
the 2 of us bunked w ms ho. n yes, thank You Lord for lynette... my companion to the toilet n everywhere whenever we werent on duty! =)

event unfolded quickly as i started crapping. so much i couldnt stop man. think the little jokes n all helped break the ice n i spoke first to janet ng. she's a little older than my mom.. teaches history. n she's a strong believer too! realized tt it was her wei zhen told me abt. she gave wei zhen a bible when she was teaching her in nanyang. cools!

later i got to know pei luan, sabrina, nicole n thory much better! over the many laughs n lame speech... wow. got to do the waterfall trek also... n spoke a little more to mr vincent ong. it's amazing how You've placed him back in mg.
come to think of it, i know you have a reason for it Lord.
i pray tt You will soften His heart n break thru to Him Lord. help him see tt his life is meaningless without You. Father, speak also to his wife n 3 kids... n i pray tt they will come to accept You as Lord n Saviour one day. thank you Lord for such a selfless man who is willing to reach down to help his students. it has etched memories in my heart. i wish to be as humble n self sacrificing as he is... help us grow in Christlikeness with each passing day. work in Him Lord!

coming back to the SIX-SOME. thory, sabrina, nicole, pei luan, lynette n me!!! we took so many hilarious n crazy pictures i feel so much younger again! never in my life was tt side of me unleashed. we even had one deep sharing on the 3rd day aftnn... started w thory asking if i had a boyfriend over lunch. wow.. now tt we know each other love lives... i would say tt i feel so encouraged by all these 5 sisters in Christ. they never fail to put You first i their lives... waiting upon You n trusting in Your timing. You have blessed some w boyfrensn husbands n the other half of us are stilll waiting for Your hand to move. but Lord, it has so encouraged m to go on waiting upon the Lord. believing tt in Your own time, you will send the right man into my life. even if You have decided to grant me the gift of singleness, i pray i accept it reverently, never wavering n having full faith in Your great n wondrous plan for my life.

the last day, went w ms ho n lynette to pekan nanas.. we bought so many things! fruits n snacks n had a nice walk around town. off we went for our kelong lunches n tt was where the photo action began. thanks to our kind photographer kelvin khoo! we managed some nice professional shots! hee.. thanks!

didnt get a chance to say goodbye to our 4 other new found frens before ms ho drove me n lynette back home. tooo tired for love mg... n also, didnt wanna see kok peng. wouldnt know what to do.

Father, you know the many sacrifices i'd made for tt friendship. n slowly as i let her have her way, her words n promises did not match her actions. not at all! i couldnt understand... n tried in vain to salvage the situation. finally, aft hurting me so much she alas spoke the truth. she really wasnt interested in saving our friendship. her seemingly excuses... of not being ready n never knowing when she'd be... to think i looked up to her n thot the best of her. my parents might jolly well have been right from the start. is she living in guilt now n cant face up to me anymore? her insults n hurting words. for the amount of time n effort i've put in.

I'm just glad she decided to stop lying. even the stars i saw in JB reminded me of the beginning of our friendship. 5 years later... it has ended. i dunno if things will ever become normal again... but for now... i feel so light. like i've one less burden weighing me down. n trust me, tt was almost the greatest burden in my life.

no doubt i've learnt many life lessons thru this... n i thank you father. i guess you've a reason for making me go thru this... not forgetting of course, tt it was the consequence of my choices.


right now??? THANK YOU FATHER for the coolest friends ive made... n the many frens tt i;ll make in the new sch year! i dont think i'll be sitting w the mg clique.. pls be gracious to me n show me favor Lord... as i flutter across cliques n mix with everyone. allow me to be myself again. the carefree n joyful gal i was. may my life be a LIVING TESTIMONY of Your grace n love! help me not let you down O Lord.

my my!!! mrs diana goh just rang me! she asked if i could relief teach on the first week of sem 2!!! BIOLOGY. oh my, Father you know i've always wanted to do just tt in mgs... but i never had the chance to.. so ended up in ctss last year for a month of so. but tt was where i met ivy ang again!
wow God! i Stand in AWE of YOU. You leave me SPEECHLESS. really.

ok. then on sunday, i was a fun filled day as yy, jolene, ally, vicky, petrina n amanda joined us for lunch at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. got an opportunity to grow closer to these gals n esp petrina whom we gave a lift to paragon. as she waited for her mom to come, my sis n i entertained her n i really got my first real chance to talk talk talk with her.

had meeting w rick n kien ann at church yest.. mich n i are thinking of going back to khorat w them... in december. actually thinking of a recee trip in june. Father, if it is ur will for us to go... let it be. i pray tt i will strive daily to be sensitive to ur promptings n guidance. thank you Lord... Amen.

yiwen, michie n winnie...

thanks for these pple who came over this aftnn... including alvin n my cuzzie...
i know her household is rather different from mine. finances are a little tight n she may not always get her 'rights'. Father, i pray for yw, that you'd continue to grant her wisdom as she leads her cell group. i pray tt you'd break thru the fixed mindsets she may have... help her know tt sometimes it takes FAITH. not always reasoning to trust n believe in You n Your word.
i thank you for her generousity... her love for her family... being willing to sacrifice n share her hard work... i pray you'll bless her in return Father.
i pray most esp for friends to surround her in sch... she's feelign lonely n dreads sch cos her friends from the past few years are no longer doing the same modules as her. Father, i pray tt the pple she meets will be kind n nice n willing to let her join their clique. it's never easy-making friends. but i pray fro wisdom, openess n may pple ard her recieve her well. since she doesnt like to approach pple... i pray you'd send some christians n other friendly pple... may they approach her n may they become pple tt will accompany her throughout her life.

Father, michie wasnt too happy w her family today... some things happened... though i'm not entirely sure what happened, i pray tt she'll stick close to you.
i pray for wisdom in the decisions she make Father. you know tt we all dont think she should be working... esp since she needs more time to study to make up for her last sem's grades... i pray tt our pcm will be more supportive of her... more encouraging (esp me... i pray i wont make fun of her or tear her down in any way w my words)... more loving...
there's only so much we can see... i pray tt even if everyone doesnt agree w her actions, i pray tt she'd go ahead if tt's what she thinks you want her to do.
Lord, please send friends to surround her. you know how hard it is to go to sch if you dont have friends there to make your day. i pray you'll just send some pple... somehow... to be there for her. i pray she'll make many good friends... esp good christian friends n good friends tt she works well with.
i pray in all her busy-ness, that she'd never forget to spend time w you daily.
Lord, i will be nicer to her. let me show my love n care for her. help me to be forgiving.

haha... she's totally cool Father! she had a tough sem last year, but it's all better now tt she's found more friends. i thank you for that Lord.
you know how she's grown to be more on fire for you. praise the Lrod for that!!! i pray this fire will never die down... that it'll only grow stronger n stronger each day.
i pray her relationship w her parents will improve. well, any teen/young adult will find difficulty in this area, but Father, i pray her parents will be more understanding sometimes... n i pray they show their love to her in a more obvious way so she'd be able to share more w her mom. i pray tt as the only child, she'd grow up strong in her parents' love.
i also wanna pray for her future... may you send the right man for winnie. i pray for a godly man... one who'd be able to encourage her in her walk w you... one who has the same faith, values n morals as her. IN YOUR TIME FATHER. AMEN.

well, he'll be enlisting soon... in a few months. i pray in the meantime... he'll make good use of the many hours he has each day. i thank you for his kind n generous heart... tt he's so willing to send me home almost every sunday... all this despite the rising petrol prices!!!
i pray you'll reveal Yourself to him in a new way each day as he reads ur word.

Lord, my cuzzie still doesnt know you. still doesnt believe in you. whatever the case Lord, i pray tt the time we spent together today... him w my bunch of christian friends... will be just a glimpse of Your love. Father, i pray tt my words, actions n thoughts will be a living testimony of Your love. please soften my cuzzie's heart. i dont know much abt him, his problems, his joys... nothing. i pray i'll put in the extra effort the few times we meet each year to just let him experience a bit of Your love. surround him w friends who know you.. n may they also be a source of testimony to your great love n mercy n grace. AMEN.

hmm, ever since tt day she 'scolded' me on her blog for something tt i dont think was wrong... i was upset w her. couldnt really talk to her much... so i havent exchanged many words w her since then. hmm, i pray i wouldnt be indifferent to the difficulties she's going thru. esp w her family members... they all seem so unreasonable.. n it's almost ALL THE TIME tt they're like that! i pray you draw her closer to you... n may she find strength for each new day in you alone. i pray you grant her wisdom in handling all these trying situations... esp her feelings n emotions. i dont know how... but i know tt w you, nothing is impossible! so Lord, turn the situations around Father.bless her cos she's given you so much of herself. reward her Father. i also pray tt you'll send the right other half into her life... n in all she does, may she honor you. AmEN.

i pray for kymn n her family. the many trying... super duper trying periods they've had to go through the past few years... the many hospital visits they've had to make to different members of the family. most esp this time, when their granddad passed away on new year's eve... i thank you for seeing them thru so far Lord. i believe you have a reason for allowing all these to happen n i believe tt you'd provide them w the strength they need to tide through this tough period. grant all of them your peace Lord. may you continue to watch over them day in n day out... i know tt you're moulding their characters Lord. i pray for sustainance... i pray for wisdom... i pray for peace... i pray for love... i pray for protection... i pray tt they'll soar on wings like eagles... they'll run n not grow weary... they will walk n not grow faint.
thru all of this, may they be a living testimony for you. may they shine like stars in the universe to your glory.
thank you for seeing them thru many many times... thank you for the love n grace you've showered upon them. i pray you'll empower them to continue living for you... serving you faithfully n ministering to others despite the own personal trials.

okies Lord, i'm off to bed. help me to get up by 730 or i'd be late. AMEN!!!

yiwen, michie n winnie...

thanks for these pple who came over this aftnn... including alvin n my cuzzie...
i know her household is rather different from mine. finances are a little tight n she may not always get her 'rights'. Father, i pray for yw, that you'd continue to grant her wisdom as she leads her cell group. i pray tt you'd break thru the fixed mindsets she may have... help her know tt sometimes it takes FAITH. not always reasoning to trust n believe in You n Your word.
i thank you for her generousity... her love for her family... being willing to sacrifice n share her hard work... i pray you'll bless her in return Father.
i pray most esp for friends to surround her in sch... she's feelign lonely n dreads sch cos her friends from the past few years are no longer doing the same modules as her. Father, i pray tt the pple she meets will be kind n nice n willing to let her join their clique. it's never easy-making friends. but i pray fro wisdom, openess n may pple ard her recieve her well. since she doesnt like to approach pple... i pray you'd send some christians n other friendly pple... may they approach her n may they become pple tt will accompany her throughout her life.

Father, michie wasnt too happy w her family today... some things happened... though i'm not entirely sure what happened, i pray tt she'll stick close to you.
i pray for wisdom in the decisions she make Father. you know tt we all dont think she should be working... esp since she needs more time to study to make up for her last sem's grades... i pray tt our pcm will be more supportive of her... more encouraging (esp me... i pray i wont make fun of her or tear her down in any way w my words)... more loving...
there's only so much we can see... i pray tt even if everyone doesnt agree w her actions, i pray tt she'd go ahead if tt's what she thinks you want her to do.
Lord, please send friends to surround her. you know how hard it is to go to sch if you dont have friends there to make your day. i pray you'll just send some pple... somehow... to be there for her. i pray she'll make many good friends... esp good christian friends n good friends tt she works well with.
i pray in all her busy-ness, that she'd never forget to spend time w you daily.
Lord, i will be nicer to her. let me show my love n care for her. help me to be forgiving.

haha... she's totally cool Father! she had a tough sem last year, but it's all better now tt she's found more friends. i thank you for that Lord.
you know how she's grown to be more on fire for you. praise the Lrod for that!!! i pray this fire will never die down... that it'll only grow stronger n stronger each day.
i pray her relationship w her parents will improve. well, any teen/young adult will find difficulty in this area, but Father, i pray her parents will be more understanding sometimes... n i pray they show their love to her in a more obvious way so she'd be able to share more w her mom. i pray tt as the only child, she'd grow up strong in her parents' love.
i also wanna pray for her future... may you send the right man for winnie. i pray for a godly man... one who'd be able to encourage her in her walk w you... one who has the same faith, values n morals as her. IN YOUR TIME FATHER. AMEN.

well, he'll be enlisting soon... in a few months. i pray in the meantime... he'll make good use of the many hours he has each day. i thank you for his kind n generous heart... tt he's so willing to send me home almost every sunday... all this despite the rising petrol prices!!!
i pray you'll reveal Yourself to him in a new way each day as he reads ur word.

Lord, my cuzzie still doesnt know you. still doesnt believe in you. whatever the case Lord, i pray tt the time we spent together today... him w my bunch of christian friends... will be just a glimpse of Your love. Father, i pray tt my words, actions n thoughts will be a living testimony of Your love. please soften my cuzzie's heart. i dont know much abt him, his problems, his joys... nothing. i pray i'll put in the extra effort the few times we meet each year to just let him experience a bit of Your love. surround him w friends who know you.. n may they also be a source of testimony to your great love n mercy n grace. AMEN.

hmm, ever since tt day she 'scolded' me on her blog for something tt i dont think was wrong... i was upset w her. couldnt really talk to her much... so i havent exchanged many words w her since then. hmm, i pray i wouldnt be indifferent to the difficulties she's going thru. esp w her family members... they all seem so unreasonable.. n it's almost ALL THE TIME tt they're like that! i pray you draw her closer to you... n may she find strength for each new day in you alone. i pray you grant her wisdom in handling all these trying situations... esp her feelings n emotions. i dont know how... but i know tt w you, nothing is impossible! so Lord, turn the situations around Father.bless her cos she's given you so much of herself. reward her Father. i also pray tt you'll send the right other half into her life... n in all she does, may she honor you. AmEN.

i pray for kymn n her family. the many trying... super duper trying periods they've had to go through the past few years... the many hospital visits they've had to make to different members of the family. most esp this time, when their granddad passed away on new year's eve... i thank you for seeing them thru so far Lord. i believe you have a reason for allowing all these to happen n i believe tt you'd provide them w the strength they need to tide through this tough period. grant all of them your peace Lord. may you continue to watch over them day in n day out... i know tt you're moulding their characters Lord. i pray for sustainance... i pray for wisdom... i pray for peace... i pray for love... i pray for protection... i pray tt they'll soar on wings like eagles... they'll run n not grow weary... they will walk n not grow faint.
thru all of this, may they be a living testimony for you. may they shine like stars in the universe to your glory.
thank you for seeing them thru many many times... thank you for the love n grace you've showered upon them. i pray you'll empower them to continue living for you... serving you faithfully n ministering to others despite the own personal trials.

okies Lord, i'm off to bed. help me to get up by 730 or i'd be late. AMEN!!!!

laoshi...

hey Father, forgot something.
laoshi. you know the changes that are gonna take place in her life in a few weeks. i suppose there's a hint of fear n apprehension in her heart.
i thank you she picked up my call the other night... she's doing alright =) just sick yet again.
Lord, strengthen her body n grant her good health. she's been sick so often.. stress? i dunno. but i'm so glad she served you in puppetry =) i pray for more opportunities for her to serve you... may she hang on tight to you in all circumstances n continue to serve you w all you've given her-her talents, abilities, personality n character.
Father, i pray joe will come to his senses asap... so laoshi wouldnt have to worry everyday abt him... i pray you'll work in his heart... help him to not only be able to differentiate right from wrong, but to stand up for what is right. it's tempting when money comes into the picture... but i pray you'll make it impossible for him to go on in his wrong doings... please Lord.
i dont think he is a christian.. but i know you can soften even the hardest of hearts. so Lord, i pray tt w each day, tt ur love n grace will be revealed to him... thru laoshi, thru ur grace in her life, thru her friends, thru the few christians tt joe will come across... i pray tt you'd use these pple to show joe how much you love him. how you are the one n only God. tt he cannot do without you.
please Lord.
Lord, you also know the difficulties laoshi is going thru.. the pressure tt's put on her... the emotions tt she may feel at times... i pray for ur peace in her heart. please help her know tt you are in full control. it may be hard to see ur hand... but i pray tt no matter what, she will be able to know ur heart. "God works in all things for the good of those who love Him." Amen! thank you for this Lord... your great, unconditional love for us.
alrighty Father... on to someone else...

LOVE.

hmm, sunday's sermon by the new pastor was abt love.
"If someone forces you to go one mile with him, go with him two mile."
Love those who love you.
Love those who are lovable.
Love those who are kind n nice.
Love those who are like you.
Love those who are easy to love.
Ultimately... ...
Love those who are difficult to love.
Love those who are different from you.
Love those who hate you.
Love those who do harm unto you.
Love those who are not nice n kind.

Lord... it's so hard.
i'm mean.. a slanderer, a gossiper, a fishmonger, a rudie, a pokai sai person.
please help me each day.
though i may fail many times over, please Father, help me.

well, i pray tmr will be a day of studying n doing tutorials. i know the morning will be fun as i'd be going to bukit timah hill! =) havent been there in ages. maybe i'll go for kymn's granddad's wake n have dinner w may lin. hmm, please help me to manage my time properly. you know the amount of work i've to do. my exams are in 5 weeks!!!

i pray i'd have time for 3 swims this week... it's the only thing tt keeps me going... fighting... gives me confidence. a sense of achievement. yet another mental battle fought. makes me stronger.
however Lord, i pray for the alertness to study n understand n remember all i've done. i pray i would be nice to pple who seem to be so selfish.

i pray especially, that i'd stand up for what is right. even if it doesnt concern me, i pray for the boldness to stand up n speak up. the other day mich n annalisa were talking abt doing something i knew was wrong... cant remember what exactly now... was it a lie they intended to tell?
all i did was to sit there n listen. i didnt say anything!!! annalisa is a Christian... but i just didnt dare to. afraid they'd see me as one who wasnt fun-loving or whatever.
i pray Your word will be like FIRE IN MY BONES Lord! i pray tt it will ignite tt sense of justice in me. i pray i'll be able to stand up for You.

CNY

CNY!
hmm, Lord you know the guilt i feel abt not studying yest.. n only doing like 6 pages of endocrine this aftnn.
tv.. a major distraction. i have to discipline myself more now tt the exams are in 5 weeks.
wells, yest, i made a new fren =) zubaida.. hope i spelt tt correctly. haha. funny how we met at the bus stop. never seen her in the lt before!!!
haha
hmm, i didnt get any nw clothes this year... but you think i should wear tt red dress tmr? tho my swimsuit mark will be seen?
hmm, i'm off to bed. nite Jesus.
i pray you protect all my friends... n allow them to enjoy this new year. lunar new year.
may i please you in all tt i do. n help me to reach out to the pple around me who needs it most.
AMEN!